Wading While Waiting

 

I sit at my desk fidgeting through an old journal. It’s nothing fancy, it would seem, except I’ve had it for years. When opened, the binder cracks and the pages crackle. The crackle is probably a result from my titanic-like struggles and the sea of tears that followed.

Hidden inside the pores of every page are emotions and thoughts recorded like a novel of sorts. As I flip the pages, my mind catches between desperate images — images of a girl desperate for Jesus.

I fold back another page and something catches my eye. The words written in hurried cursive, “Take away my embittered heart, Lord. It’s hard for me to wait on you.” I want to say to you, “Besides you God, I desire nothing on this earth,” but honestly, I desire not to wait anymore.”

If we peel away the layers of our soul, way down to the core, we will find something in common.

We’ve all experienced waiting periods—a stronghold that seems to choke the spiritual joy out of our lives.

We wait for test results,

for a new job, 

for that pregnancy,

for prince charming (who sometimes seems to have gotten lost).

I find solace in knowing I’m not the only one who has been frustrated in the wait. Sometimes I wonder… maybe the reason we wait is because somewhere along the way we got a little ahead of God.

This may sound weird, but, I like to revisit my waiting periods and the fickleness of my words.

I can see how far I’ve come. I see how long He carried me. I recognize spiritual markers flagging themselves in my journal. I sense where I fell and where he dusted me off; where I lost my footing and how He set me on my feet again (for the bazillionth time).

I don’t know what tough things you’ve been through or are currently going through in your life, but I do know we’ll never reach the promise land without going through the desert first. I know first-hand that on the outer banks of wait is an unspeakable joy ready to calm and absorb you.

In the meantime if you find yourself waiting, I pray the following Truths will provide courage to actively, not passively, wait on God (the way it did for me). 

~Psalm 46:10 “Know that I am God, exalted among the nations, exalted on the earth.”

~Psalm 33:20, “We wait for the LORD; He is our help and shield.”

~Psalm 37:34, “34 Wait for the LORD and keep His way, and He will exalt you to inherit the land.  You will watch when the wicked are destroyed.”

~Isaiah 40:31, “31 But those who hope in the LORD will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint.”

Lord, my heart waits silently for you, my deliverance comes from you, my trust is only in you.

Amen.
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11 Responses

10.16.11

It is always so difficult to wait. But those who wait on God’s timing are always blessed! Your post encouraged me this morning as it confirmed what I have been learning from Him!

Blessings, Joan

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10.16.11

“…maybe the reason we wait is because somewhere along the way we got a little ahead of God.” Love that. So true. We rush ahead far to often instead of waiting on the Father. Great encouragement today Kelli.

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10.16.11

Oh, this is good, Kelli! Thank you for sharing! I’ve been there many times, in that waiting period! I have many journals as well, that tell me all about those times, and show me just how far He has brought me!
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10.16.11

Thank you for encouraging me all the time… I love you! Praying this… “Lord, my heart waits silently for you, my deliverance comes from you, my trust is only in you.”

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“My trust in only in You.” I needed to close my eyes and repeat these words after I just got off a disheartening phone call. I will trust, with everything I have, in Him.”

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10.16.11

Hi Kelli – a post of mine was similar last week and I think sometimes we write about the things we are dealing with. I am in a waiting period. So not enjoying it but love learning all you guys have to say. Thank you, Kelli, for the encouragement and the verses. I’m grateful to the Lord for grinning and bearing with us as He teaches us in the waiting times.
God bless
Tracy
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10.16.11

Waiting is hard, but when we find Him in the waiting it’s worth every minute!

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10.16.11

Kelli,

I like to revisit my waiting periods too, they remind me that God is God and I am not. Waiting teaches us patience, trust and what I learned the most during the waiting periods, is to be still and know that He is God, to slow down and enjoy my time with Him rather than sprinting for the finish line. Beautifully written words today Kelli, and such an encouragement.

Blessings to you.
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It can be so helpful to revisit those times of waiting Kelli; when every fiber of our being longed for God’s release in our lives, but felt it was taking far longer than we desire. As you noted, God uses those “deserts” to teach us, temper our faith and draw us closer to Him as we wait.

This is wonderful encouragement, and a great post to begin the week!

Have a Blessed Day!
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Why is that waiting (inactivity) seems far more tiring than the phrenetic period that follows the wait. As I wait, I remember those who wait on God are renewed…
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10.16.11

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