When We Have Trust Issues


As tears roll down her cheek, my dear neighbor wonders why this week has been so difficult. Her questions about God’s character begin to stew. The soot begins to tumble from gray-smoke-filled clouds as she mulls. She mulls over all the injustices from the week.

Where is God?

Does he hear me? She asks with a squeak in her voice.

Her family’s week is certainly a tragedy to lament. A family member dies suddenly. A brother snaps and goes to prison. Her in-laws yanked from their home as possessions perish in a tornado-like pillar of fire. The heater blows as weather shifts and snow begins to fall.

We can’t go back.

We can’t go back to the scene of the accident. We can’t go back to the hospital bed. We can’t go back to pack up all that was lost.

Oswald Chambers said it best, “Let the past sleep, but let it sleep on the bosom of Christ, and go out into the irresistible future with Him.”

Sometimes we stare too long at the known and all its rationale. We wade in waters of how-comes and whys. Unfortunately this frivolity limits the abundant life. It prevents us from daring to leap forward into the unknown~ a place where Messiah-touched-moments move us, transform us.

We have a choice even in tragedy.

We can wrestle with life because it isn’t what we thought it would be. We can wish the pain would simply go away. We can get angry,

…or we can choose trust even when trust doesn’t seem like enough.

We trust even when our faith foundation feels charred.

We trust even when there’s no food or roof, anymore.

We trust God. Period.

Trust His ways are not our ways.

Trust there’s purpose tangled in pain.

Trust joy will rise over rubble.

Trust that, “Seldom does God use a person greatly who has not been hurt deeply,” A.W. Tozer.

Trust there is a progression of faith through trials.

There’s a progression of faith as it transitions from suffering to perseverance; from perseverance to character; and from character to hope. If the King of kings and Lord of lords was made “perfect through suffering,” we should not be surprised that God’s grace can also lead us to a higher level of spiritual maturity through trials.

As I stand on my sweet friend’s front porch, we gaze over the street at the smoldering blackened earth still bubbling from the beating. But, the fresh falling snow seems to cover it  ~ nursing it back to health in a way.

Kind of like what God does for us. Nurses our wounds. Heals our scars.

In the midst of hushed silence, a familiar melody echoes through my mind like an old record mom used to play….

Jesus, Jesus, how I trust you!
How I’ve proved you o’er and o’er!
Jesus, Jesus, precious Jesus!
Oh, for grace to trust you more!

Amen.

And sometimes that’s the only thing to say.

 Praying for the loss in our community and for God’s comfort, a comfort only he can give.

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13 Responses

11.21.11

Kelli, I just think there’s something so sweet and poetic and snow falling, covering blackened earth. Like God’s grace, love, and forgiveness covering our blackened heart. He makes all things new – and He will do the same for your suffering community. Prayers for you all!
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11.21.11

Such great encouragement. We don’t always know why things happen, but we can find comfort knowing He is there and He will heal our scars. Praying for all of those effected by the wildfires.
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Once again: the progressions we follow in our walk with God. And we have to choose faith over and over.

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Powerful photos and great encouragement here, Kelli. You’ve been in my thoughts and prayers this week. Only God can truly rebuild what has been lost, but you’re right, we must trust. Period. Love and prayers to you and your precious family 🙂
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11.21.11

Kelli,

Powerful words, beautiful inspiration, this is poetry my friend. We will probably never know the why behind some of the things that happen, but we know He will work it out for the good, there is plan even when it is hard to see it through the ash.

Blessings to you Kelli.
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11.21.11

Love this truth… “If the King of kings and Lord of lords was made “perfect through suffering,” we should not be surprised that God’s grace can also lead us to a higher level of spiritual maturity through trials.” That’s where peace and joy enter into our toughest times… because He’s there and He has a plan for it all. Beautiful post my sweet friend.

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11.21.11

Hi Kelli – I like what you said here. We have to trust no matter what it looks like and especially when we can see no sense in it or no solution. TRUST TRUST TRUST
Great post, very heart-searching!
God bless
Tracy
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11.21.11

Thankful for your safety and prayers your way for the community!
God is our refuge and strength in the good and bad times!

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11.21.11

“Trust there’s purpose tangled in pain.

Trust joy will rise over rubble.”

Amen! Love what you have shared here…such great encouragement…what lessons we learn….

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Hard, hard things…and yet, GOD sees the bigger picture…from eternity. “JESUS, JESUS how I trust you.” And you’re so very right…sometimes that’s all we can say.
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11.21.11

I remember this song well from the church in which I grew up. Brings back fond memories.

Jesus, Jesus, how I trust you!
How I’ve proved you o’er and o’er!
Jesus, Jesus, precious Jesus!
Oh, for grace to trust you more!

You have a lovely way with words Kelli, and a blessed message too. Though he slay me, yet will I trust in him.

Happy Thanksgiving!
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11.21.11

Such sad news all around, but trust is all we really have in Him alone. Praise God for His reminder, His love, and His perfect care even when we have no idea what is happening. I loved the song, “Jesus, Jesus, how I trust You.” The melody gives courage to the fainthearted, doesn’t it?
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What a powerful post Kelli.

I was actually having a similar conversation with a friend today. Through all the pain, and fear, and turmoil in our lives, part of having Christ tethered to our hearts is the underlying trust and faith that there truly is a “Bigger Picture” in play, and that we’re loved beyond it all.

God performs some of His most powerful work when to us, the situations seem most dire.

Have a Blessed Day!
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