Archive: May, 2011

Am I Perfect Yet?

I don’t know about you, but too often I find myself tangled up… bound tight in my failures.

Not so much my mistakes from before I believed… I’m not proud of those things, but they don’t consume me. Honestly, at the knowledge of His saving grace I readily drop my past at the foot of the cross and move on with Jesus and never go back.
It’s the mis-steps and insufficiencies since becoming a Christian that trip me up. The thoughts of who I’m not and what things I have not yet overcome that distort my vision of me. It’s the lingering sin… the issues that come and go and come yet again… these take me down.
I catch a glimpse in the mirror and wonder just what God will have to do with me… as if I might still shamefully wear the label “lost cause.”
Satan loves this about me. I faithfully provide him a sea of opportunities to pollute my mind… to rock my security… to rob me of my worth and my joy.
I forget all to easily that I am new. I’m not talking about the new me from salvation. Beyond that, how I am being made new…. in active renewal status… sanctification… now and up until He comes for me.
When I stumble down this troubled, loathsome road I need only shift my eyes from me and onto Him to see the light again. He shines promise upon me…
For by one offering He has perfected forever those who are being sanctified.” Hebrews 10:14 KJV
That’s me that verse is talking about and you… His offering has perfected us FOREVER as we move ahead in the unfolding of sanctification.
And I suddenly wonder, what’s the rush? This need for perfection here in this place. Because I know it won’t come here and if I just cling to this path that I muddle along, slow as it seems, then I remain fixed in His plan… right where He wants me.
I’m reminded of this song by Jason Gray, I know you’ve all heard it…

I love the last lines that say…

Forgiven Beloved
Hidden in Christ
Made in the image of the giver of life
Righteous and Holy
Reborn and Remade
Accepted and Worthy 
This is our new name
This is who we are now…

I often awake to those words echoing about in the deep of my mind… they serenade hope and promise to my wondering heart. And that’s what it’s all about… remembering who I am in Him. Forgetting what I’m not to the World and refusing to give  my flesh the lead. Then in the great exchange of my weakness for His strength I have super-natural power to handle Satan’s attacks. I can check the sand for footprints and follow Paul… “forgetting what is behind and straining toward what is ahead… heavenward” where I am not only made new… but my perfection is complete.


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Fingerprint Path… It’s a Dawna Day!

Why do we fight who we are?

Why do we want to have other gifts, traits, looks, personalities? 
Why do we want other people’s lives/ paths? 
These questions came while watching a movie with my children one evening. They got into an argument because they were picking what character they were in the movie. No kidding, my middle daughter was mad because my oldest daughter had already chose the pretty, popular actress and she had to be the boring sidekick.
I’ll be honest, I got upset.
I did the mom thing and told them to stop and that neither of them were “her”, it’s a MOVIE girls! Besides that, what is wrong with being you? They gave me the exasperated scoff and turned back to the TV. I kept thinking about it, and it broke my heart to realize that they don’t think that who they are is “enough.”
It got me thinking…. what does God think when who he made is not “enough” for us?
Does it twist his heart to watch us struggle to be everyone but ourselves?
I believe we all struggle with finding ourselves, but looking back in my life, I admit to looking next to me more than I looked up for the answer. I would see the ballerina and fail miserably. I would see the “smart” girl and fall short. Everyone seemed to be someone I was not, which I thought was a bad thing. 

I let Satan and society convince me that the person God made was “lesser and boring.”
I’m easy going… I should be strong, bold, and independent.
I’m nurturing… I should use my brain not my heart.
I’m domestic… My strengths should be outside the house.
I genuinely like to serve others… Not normal; I am supposed to want to be served.
I like to study and teach… I should have a higher goals, travel, and excitement.
We all have a journey, a personal maze made by God. A journey not only to finish but a journey to enjoy.  I think of it as a racetrack. Gods Fingerprint made special for every individual. Only I can finish the race he has set before me with my unique combinations of qualities and I have found out when I try to jump track onto someone else’s journey I wreck! I look back and see His arm as my guardrail through life, always gently bumping me back on track.
You will now find me embracing what and who God has formed me to be. I am easy going– so what, I stand up for things that matter! God knew I would need domestic qualities with six kids, a husband, four Dogs, and two Lizards.
Thank God, I am nurturing, like learning, teaching, and serving. For my journey, they are the perfect tools.  I am learning to live life abundantly. I have learned to give it to Him.
Lord, I only desire to be who You see fit to make me. I am only able to be that which You molded me to be.  
My prayer for you, is that you’re able to honestly look in the mirror and praise God for the person staring back at you..
YOU are good enough!


Eucharisteo

I’m sure you’ve heard of Ann Voskamp’s book One Thousand Gifts. Well, after seeing it everywhere and hearing about it from so many I finally decided to check it out for myself.

I’m so glad I did.
Right on the cover it says…
“A Dare to LIVE FULLY Right Where You Are.” 
This alone is a challenge my heart leaps at the opportunity to discover.
The author has a beautiful and unique way of writing that draws me right into her world. But what has driven me to share this book with you today is her divine revelation on the term Eucharisteo.
She breaks it down like this…
The meaning of Eucharisteo is Thanksgiving.
The root word of Eucharisteo in the Greek is charis and means Grace.
The derivative of charis is the Greek word chara which means Joy.
Grace. Thanksgiving. Joy. 
She delicately and beautifully defines them…
“A triplet of stars, a constellation in the black.”

“A threefold cord that might… offer a way up into the fullest life.”
A few pages later she describes it in such a way that I am affected deeply with a desire to experience eucharisteo for myself…
“At Eucharist, Christ breaks His heart to heal ours – Christ, the complete accomplishment of our salvation. And the miracle of eucharisteo never ends: thanksgiving is what precedes the miracle of that salvation being full y worked out in our lives. Thanksgiving – giving thanks in everything – is what prepares the way for salvation’s whole restoration. Our salvation in Christ is real, yet the completeness of that salvation is not fully realized in a life until the life realizes the need to give thanks… in everything.”
She goes on to say, “I would never experience the fullness of my salvation until I expressed the fullness of my thanks every day, and eucharisteo is the elemental to living the saved life.”
She’s right.
But how? How are we to really give thanks in every-thing? And I mean beyond the blanket prayer… “thank you God for all that you give.”
The answer? Start somewhere. Anywhere. Just begin.
A friend of the author dares her to begin a list of gifts… one thousand gifts of gratitude to the Lord. And so she begins “naming” them as she calls it and as she does He changes her. She experiences real Grace, real Thanksgiving and real Joy.

I want that.
So I’ve decided to join her for multitudes on mondays, along with hundreds of other bloggers at A Holy Experience and begin “naming” my own list of one thousand gifts to the Lord.
His Grace covers me. I offer Him Thanks. And His Joy fills me…
1. sweet childhood memories: black, rubber tire swing… dark musky basement… creaky wooden rocking chair- with her in it: my grandma

2. watching her fly on eight wheels

3. freedom to watch them grow every moment of every day
4. doctors, medication, surgeries and recovery
5. husbands love despite me
6. bitter-sweetness of grandma anticipating heaven

7. little girls saying “yes” to Jesus

8. peace granted for midnight whispers of fear
9. warm hot tub on chilly Spring day

10. my depravity because it keeps me desperate for Him
I like “naming” my gifts… the things I might just let pass by without really acknowledging Him with gratitude in my heart. Ann Voskamp is not alone… I also smile and notice the Joy that putting pen to paper in Thanksgiving brings to my soul.
Ten down… only nine-hundred-ninety to go!
What are your thoughts on Eucharisteo?


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Congrats Goodrich Family!

Ben and Christa Goodrich dedicated their baby girl, Anna Faith today. I took some sweet pictures of them and wanted to share them with you!

Anna Faith

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