Why do we fight who we are?
Why do we want to have other gifts, traits, looks, personalities?
Why do we want other people’s lives/ paths?
These questions came while watching a movie with my children one evening. They got into an argument because they were picking what character they were in the movie. No kidding, my middle daughter was mad because my oldest daughter had already chose the pretty, popular actress and she had to be the boring sidekick.
I’ll be honest, I got upset.
I did the mom thing and told them to stop and that neither of them were “her”, it’s a MOVIE girls! Besides that, what is wrong with being you? They gave me the exasperated scoff and turned back to the TV. I kept thinking about it, and it broke my heart to realize that they don’t think that who they are is “enough.”
It got me thinking…. what does God think when who he made is not “enough” for us?
Does it twist his heart to watch us struggle to be everyone but ourselves?
I believe we all struggle with finding ourselves, but looking back in my life, I admit to looking next to me more than I looked up for the answer. I would see the ballerina and fail miserably. I would see the “smart” girl and fall short. Everyone seemed to be someone I was not, which I thought was a bad thing.
I let Satan and society convince me that the person God made was “lesser and boring.”
I’m easy going… I should be strong, bold, and independent.
I’m nurturing… I should use my brain not my heart.
I’m domestic… My strengths should be outside the house.
I genuinely like to serve others… Not normal; I am supposed to want to be served.
I like to study and teach… I should have a higher goals, travel, and excitement.
We all have a journey, a personal maze made by God. A journey not only to finish but a journey to enjoy. I think of it as a racetrack. Gods Fingerprint made special for every individual. Only I can finish the race he has set before me with my unique combinations of qualities and I have found out when I try to jump track onto someone else’s journey I wreck! I look back and see His arm as my guardrail through life, always gently bumping me back on track.
You will now find me embracing what and who God has formed me to be. I am easy going– so what, I stand up for things that matter! God knew I would need domestic qualities with six kids, a husband, four Dogs, and two Lizards.
Thank God, I am nurturing, like learning, teaching, and serving. For my journey, they are the perfect tools. I am learning to live life abundantly. I have learned to give it to Him.
Lord, I only desire to be who You see fit to make me. I am only able to be that which You molded me to be.
My prayer for you, is that you’re able to honestly look in the mirror and praise God for the person staring back at you..
YOU are good enough!
YOU are good enough!