“Mom, why didn’t you tell me I was going to get shots today?” – The question surprised me as the words tumbled out of my teary-eyed 5 year-old. She sat staring down at the two Scooby Doo Band-Aids pressed across both of her red and swollen thighs.
Just moments earlier she climbed into the safety of my lap as I wrapped both of her arms tightly in my own while the nurse injected her with four immunizations.
I thoughtfully considered her question. There were two reasons why I didn’t tell her that she’d get shots today at her annual appointment.
1.) I didn’t want her to fret and worry all day long about what was ahead. I just didn’t see the point of putting her through all of that.
2.) I didn’t want to deal with her fretting and worrying… and whining all day long that she didn’t want to go… I didn’t see the point of putting me through all of that!
I hugged her intently, kissed her head, said I’m sorry and dove into reason #1. Then I suggested McDonalds and all was right in her world again.
As I drove away the thought of God’s plan for my life crossed my mind. I have no idea where I’m headed. What danger or suffering lies ahead for me? Fear of the unknown made a stealthy play for my heart… our financial stability… our health… my children’s future.
The list goes on until… I hear my own words echo back at me… “My child, I don’t want you to fret or worry about any of that… If I told you more than you need to know then your worry would just increase.”
And His familiar Word settled on my heart…
“You will keep in perfect peace those whose minds
are steadfast, because they trust in you.”
Just like I need my children to trust me to lead them – even when it hurts, so also the Lord requires that I do the same thing with Him. In fact, the path I take them on is completely dependent on my trust in Him. And the way I trust Him will greatly impact the way they do.
I want to get it right.